Zen Impact

So, I was sitting w my sangha (group meditation) on Wednesday, doing what Im not supposed to be doing... thinking about things! Lol! BUT... i got some really good stuff so i decided not to stop myself.
This is what I've come up w....
I lack DEDICATION and FOLLOW-THRU.
I basically always start things... and rarely finish them. So my new goal I've set for myself is that when i decide to start something or take on a task I MUST finish it and give it everything I can to make it a reflection of me, not 1/2 assed.

Example. Right now, I sit (meditate) w a small group in Kennesaw, when I actually go and when Im not making an excuse not to go. But... everytime I do go I feel great, I love it! So I'm going to be more strict w myself about going EVERY SINGLE WEDNESDAY. and if for some reason I cant make it to actually sit w my group I will sit on my own, wherever I am.
Other Example. My sangha pays $25 a week to rent a teeny tiny room in the back of a church, which is great dont get me wrong, its a sweet little homey cozy room, but its money they may not NEED to be spending. So I have taken on the task of getting my group recognized as a student organization at KSU! So then we have a FREE room, AND we open ourselves up to a whole new 'potential' community. I think that if other students knew this was availible we would have a huge turn-out. I think about my friends and people Ive met on campus and I KNOW at least a few of them would probably try it out, and if they like it AWESOME and if not, at least they have opened themselves to a new experience and know what zazen (sitting to mediate) is all about, sort of.

Basically, I've learned in my few months of zazen that its about discipline. And I've also realized that I REALLY REALLY REALLY lack self-discipline. So this is me... turning over a new leaf... and Im really excited about it!
I'm about to scurry off to Rock and Roll class, then I'm getting the paperwork to make Kennesaw Zen Soto Center a legit student organization!
More to come after class about my WWOOFing plans! and if you have no clue what that is u can:
a) google it
or
b) stay tuned!

Much Love
(inner) peace- Michaela Marie

New friends

So I met a new friend today, honestly I already forgot his name lol but.... he will never forget mine because its tattooed down his arm! Don't see that everyday! Its even spelled correctly! So awesome that totally made my day!
But..... I'm in class now so ill continue these shannanagins later.
(Inner)peace.... me!

So Ill just start off by responding to Bean's ending question ".. is being a nonconformist conforming to nonconformism? "
I don't think so... to me non-conformism is only deciding to be exactly who you are without feeling the need to conform to any one thing. Like in my case, I'm like a combo of flowerchild, workaholic, slacker, nerd, girlfriend, sister, daughter. I think that non-conforming means that you don't let ONE thing describe you. I don't think I necessarily fit in w any specific group but I can go hang out and have a good time with any group of people. So I'm not actually TRYING to not conform, I'm just doing exactly what I want to w/o being held back by barriers.

Also... Strongsville was like a TRAP!!! To me Ohio in general was kind of a trap. I felt like I had to be the person I always was but I had changed so much and it sucked cause I didn't think my friends would accept changed me. I know a lot of that was just me thinking and that I was more than likely very very very wrong BUT... leaving Ohio let me find myself and was the best decision I have ever made! Once I made it to Georgia I held nothing back, I just let me be me without worrying of being judged. I think my biggest fear was people thinking that I was trying to be someone I'm not when in reality I was still being someone who I wasn't anymore. Oh Strongsville, sweet abyss of suburbia. I hope that everyone who is there there is happy and knows who they are and doesn't get fooled by the trap.

Ok now... thoughts of my own. I think I'm in zen mode too soon, lol. On my way to sangha in a few min where I plan on emptying my mind and sitting in the moment for an hr. And my mind is feeling pretty damn empty right now. Classes started and I'm a Spanish failure already! I registered for Intro Spanish II thinking I already had the basics down and there was NO ENGLISH at all... I'm 100% NOT ready for that yet, Lo Siento Professora Martin.
Ok I'm off to meditate... deuces!
(inner) peace- Michaela Marie

Into the Morning - intro (with beatbox)

In the Beginning

So this is it... the starting point. Britt (Bean) and I have decided to start up dueling blogs sister style. We are closing the ~600 mile gap between us via blog, so we can share our thoughts, plans, happenings and whatever else we want!
SO, I's Sister One... Michaela Marie. This whole thing was my idea. I was entirely too bored and asked Bean to help me pick a title for my blog when she decided lets do a blog together and voila, Sister One and Sister Two Blogs were born!
Where to go from here..... Its a Sunday (funday) and Lenny, my boyfriend, is at work so I'm just lounging around. I finished building a bird feeder, tried catching a little lizard in the backyard, got all my school stuff ready for class on Tuesday and now I'm dreading going back to work tomorrow, ugh.
Ive been rocking out to Slacker Radio- Jam Band station, they actually played a song from an old Bonnaroo friend today (Zack Deputy) that made my day.
Bean and I are discussing what her sister name will be... and let me tell you this is quite an amusing conversation. I'm so happy that we can chat and goof off and bond even more when we are apart. God I love technology!
Well I think I hit a blog wall here... so Ill just got do what I do and let the ideas flow back in. Taking the Beast for a walk, maybe I'll post some pics.... MAYBE.
toodle-looo
(inner)peace- Flowerchild